Ideas

I am starting to believe more and more that you do not love for who I am but for the potential you see and the ideas you've created about me.

I am afraid that I may be fighting a lost cause. But I believe too much in love. I'm such a romantic. It's humiliating to admit that I'm no different from all the other girls who fall for the wrong guys... even if everyone can see as clear as the sun how wrong it is to keep the relationship. I have been blinded. But you have been praying for me. I have to believe I am still the one you want.

I am not sorry though, for you I am. I will not make promises anymore. Love me for who I am or leave. As I am trying my best to love you despite all you are. Your stellar qualities and those that hurt me. They're a package. I can't change you. And even if there are many things I don't like about you, I still chose this. I have to accept the consequence.

If you can no longer find the happiness with me, then I will no longer stop you from leaving. While we will encounter challenges, the point of us is to find strength with each other, to stand as one against the world. If you can no longer stand with me...it is your happiness that matters. How can I force myself on someone who can't be happy with me? How can I be happy if the one I love isn't?

And again,I ask God why you? You used to be my angel, not my persecutor. But now it seems all you see are the flaws.

Still, i thank God for you. For the amazingly happy moments. For the experience. Whatever happens from hereon... the lessons learned from having you will forever be a part of who I am.