Singing Pain

When you see me... I smile, laugh...
I don't want you to see me in pain...
That everyday, i think of ways to escape
The loneliness that overwhelms me

To the point of madness.

I endeavor not to indulge in self-pity
Nor wallow in self-destruction
I strive to forget
That I'm miserable

Knowing that in my hour of worst pain
I alone will have to bear it.

You see a mask
As I keep myself afloat
Functioning in a society
That will never comprehend me

I'm tired of defending my actions
The reason why I do the things I do

And I'm sick of being condemned
With my short-comings

The mere fact that I survive
I give myself credit for

The world hurts me
But I cannot fight back
I have no interest in a world
That thrives on gossip... and pathetic back-biting

And so I mind my own business
Willingly blinding myself
Protecting myself

I realize... there is nothing wrong with me.
I am who I am
And I await the time
When those whom I care for

Will learn to accept me in full.