Drowning

There was a time...
That I almost believed
That I was good enough for you.
That somehow, I could be the girl I actually wanna be
For you...

There was a time...
When I pretended to be
Someone better than I actually was
And I almost believed
That that the role I acted
Was something I could keep

But I could never please you
And i can't keep on acting
I can't keep on pretending
To be someone so you can love me

I see your disappointment
The tolerance in your eyes
As you look on blindly
Pretending you didn't see me
In my worst condition

Pretending that I could be
The person you thought I was

When I was alone
I was lonely
But I was sure
Of who I was
And what I can do
And what I wanted

I relied on my strength
And laughed at my own clumsiness
My pride was my defense
I was the master of my world

You look upon me with judgement
How can I not see?
And I care for you.
But you wound me.

You need me not
I have nothing to give.
I am worthless to you.

Because I have always been stronger
Alone.

And Finally...

I can see your tears,
But I can't wipe them

I can feel your pain,
But I can't soothe them

Perhaps you never felt my fear
My insecurities...

Perhaps I only imagine of your love for me
And fate has saved me

From you.
From me.

From what could never be.