Tide

Our relationship has always been like that of the gentle wind.
Caressing, comforting, soothing.
You are the constant thing that makes sense
When nothing does anymore.

But I have always been unaware of this.
Of your presence
And your kindness

I took for granted everything you did for me
Assuming that this is who you are
And I make no difference in your life.

I was too wounded to care
Too jaded to feel
Too defensive to believe

But now my eyes began to unfold.
And the more I didn't understand why.
You have this fondness for me.

Me... who was unattractive
And undeserving
And was clumsy.

It has remained a mystery to me
Why despite my moods
You seem to have immeasurable tolerance.

I didn't understand.
I still couldn't.
I probably never will.

You... whom I have the highest admiration for
Someone I have never in my dreams thought I could possibly have
My angel come to life...

The gentle wind that you are
Now touches my soul
And my warms my heart.

And my greatest fear and my fondest wish
Has finally come to life

That I might lose myself in you
That I might depend on you
That I might suffocate you...

And the tide that I have battled with for so long
Might eventually break me
Destroy me

Because I love you.