Blame

Through the course of my life
I have made errors
Stopping me cold in my tracks
Leaving me weak...lost.

The cold night stretches before me
Endless and dark
There is nothing to look forward to.

The fight that leaves me
The pain in each breath I take

I grasp for air that is not there
For a branch that I cannot reach.

And finally, these mistakes are mine
As I embrace them
Thorns and all
As they bleed me to death

The pain swallows me whole
Trapped in my own folly.

I cannot blame you, or them or anybody.
My life is my own
My reactions my responsibilities

As i accept my own defeat
As i rest from struggle
I felt a sense of... abandon. Of freedom.

I give my heart away
Without reservations
And if it breaks...whose fault is that?

Mine alone.