Insane

Feelings I can't control
I'm afraid to fall in love with you.
You might not love me too.

What I feel for you
Might have you running scared.
I don't want to lose you...

Yet, you're not even mine.
How do I keep you?
How hopeless I've become...

What do i do? I want it to stop.
I want this feeling to go away
It feels like a dream

I want to forget.
I want to run.
I want to escape.

I want the coldness and the bitterness
The smug superiority
Of being the strong loner I've always been.

Yet... happy. I feel happy.
Alive.
As if my life suddenly has meaning.

And all i want is you.
You... the one i can't reach
The one I can't trust

Illusion.
This is what it is.
But it has lured me.