Darkness

There is no hate
Only defeat
There is no sadness
Only acceptance
There is no free will
Only destiny

What the heart says
Reality does not comprehend
What the mind screams
People cannot hear

In the solitary confines where I live
I cower
Against a world
Full of evils

I long to be free
But fear binds me
Old scars threatening to open.

The world sees a mask
Of sanity, of logic.
I laugh amongst you...

But everyday, I lose it.
A madness that threatens to overwhelm.

Helplessness
Falling in an abyss
That no one can save me from.

Death in each breath i take
The meaninglessness of my life
Taking its toll on my youth, my health.

You cannot know the despair
The notion of worthlessness
Looming like a dark angry cloud.

Have I lived enough?
I cannot even feel the pain anymore.
I cannot even feel the need to need anymore.

Very simply... I do not matter
And I do not care.