Resistance

And so here we are...
I've told you more than I intended to let on.
Poured out my heart, my soul...
Making me shrink in utter humiliation...

Yet know it you must.
In so many ways, i played around with my words.
Did i make any sense?

You pry on my insecurities.
My weakness
My fear.

You intend to open again what has healed.
You intend to batter on my defenses.

I said i wanted to stay as friends.
Yet it isn't what I feel.

You stir the blood.

Sometimes, I get so weak.
So tired.
Sometimes, I need you so.
Just to lie down next to you.

Without words. Just to feel the comfort of you.

But to give in to that fatigue is folly.
I don't want to lose my heart in you.
I don't want to love you.