Cloud

The loneliness has engulfed me in ways unimaginable
Unfathomable.
Like a cloud of darkness
Enshrouding me
Killing me.

Killing me inside
Burning my mind.
Numbing it.

I would like to escape
I would like to run

There is nothing finally
No inspiration
No joy
Only an endless sorrow
A confusion

Depression beyond what i can bear
Suddenly, I've turned into a coward.
Just to escape the pain.
Anything to escape the emptiness gnawing at me

Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide.
Sleep had been my only solace

I could reach no one, and no one could reach me
I'm beyond anyone's ability to console.

Confusion... why?
I've lost will to be alive
All reason to live

Food tastes dull.
Work seems meaningless.
Beauty is of no use at all
Youth is wasted on me.

And all those who love me
Who deserve my kindest gratitude...

I'm sorry... I'm sorry....
I cannot understand what I'm going through.

All i know is that I'm so alone.
God... im so alone.
So lonely.